Feeling Flabby and Frumpy

Apologies for not writing in quite some time. I promise I didn't give up on you are anything. I just have been really busy. School and Work...and School and Work some more. I actually will probably have even less time in the next 6 weeks. So as far as the weight loss goes, everything is going good. I have only lost 4 pounds since the last post. But 4 pounds is better than nothing. I am also in between sizes right now. I can fit into some 18s but not all of them but the 20 fits me in the legs but is loose around the waist area.

Generally I lose weight in my face first and then chest but this time I am losing it on my true waist first.. you know between you chest and hips. The smallest portion of you abdomen if you will. I am not complaining at all, but I hate when my face looks fat. I know I probably shouldn't be doing this but I have been standing in my undergarments in front of the mirror telling myself how fat I am... not good for the self-esteem. Sometimes I just wish I could take a scalpel and just cut it all off. If only it were that easy.

I was looking at the picture to my right a few minutes ago and if you have never met my family before.. these lovely ladies are as follows: left to right: Brandi (my sister), Rain (Cousin), Amanda (Cousin), and Kristin (Cousin). As you can see that we aren't an bad looking family. I think my father is very handsome as well as my brother. But I just don't fit in with them right now. They are skinny and beautiful, and well I'm sure I would be if I were skinnier. You may think that I am just feeling sorry for myself, but this is how I constantly feel when I am around them. I just feel like I don't fit in. I love them to death, they are my best friends, but my self-confidence really lacks at family get-togethers.

I just wish I could get down to the weight I was before I went to Paris I was almost to the 180s then. That would be nice. I need to just get outside and sweat everything out. I just hate sweating. I know that doesn't help. I just do. This blog is starting this get really random. Gah. I will post my stats for this week below.

Thanks for sticking with me by the way. It is most appreciated.

Weight: 253.2 lbs.
Fat: 45.5%
Water: 35.2%
Muscle: 22.1%
Calories Suggested: 1801

Katelyn